Hey there everybody, haven't blogged in a long time i see. I know i have been trying to escape a custom made test for me from God, and i'm sorry Lord for trying to find a way to escape... I am just realizing that myself as i write this blog, well today i went bowling with

yeah them haha then after that we went for prawning at farmmart and it was boring at first but then we caught our first prawn haha well then me, anthony, samuel and caleb went for the fish spa and boy! was it tickelish haha its an inexplicable thing i guess you'd just have to try it out to see what it feels like haha. Our hands and feet were so super smooth and soft! and we also went so that BJ and David could 'bond' hahahahaha well not really haha it was for them not to give that sian look. But we honestly had fun eating the prawns and david had fun drumming with them on sticks! haha and well the cooking and killing were their favourite parts so was the setting the fire hahaha it took 3 of us to try to figure it out and yet we needed help from another guy hahaha well now i'm feeling abit down cause of a friendship problem(AGAIN!) why did i ever befriend him? maybe i could have saved up on the heartache if i didn't haha well a person once said "What does not kill you makes you stronger" I very well hope thats actually true in this case! i know theres one song that sort of shows what i'm feeling right now and its a DISNEY SONG! surprise surprise http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sm0uR81AZhA&feature=related

updates

Today i went to Jurong Safra to swim with some pri 6 and the wong sisters. Then we went to the jungle gym inside safra to play and now i'm super uber tired but i can't go off cause i'm uploading the photos on facebook! after that i'm most probably going to sleep! and its only 6pm! anyway i thank God I managed to go out to someplace great! Tomorrow we're going bowling!

When Times are Rough, God is shown! and UPDATES!

WOW! i haven't written a blog in a looonngg time! I've actually been going through a rough patch but then i also know that if you don't go through rough patches in your christian walk at all then something is wrong with it, i've been turning to God for this and I know He will see me through! I also know that the devil was attacking me because i was going to sing on Sunday, If i didn't realize it straight away i would have messed up entirely during the back up singing on sunday. I'm glad i have a God who always has been my best friend from the beginning. I was very happy when i found out i would be encouraging His people to praise Him! I even had fun singing and encouraging people on stage! Praise the Lord! Thanks to the youth who are encouraging and really friendly to me, and i thank the Lord for helping me find other friends to relate and joke with! I'm also going to get a guitar and join Elvin's guitar class with Tyzus and Samuel and i think one more person. I had fun on sunday too with the older youth! of course Joy was making fun of David in the car and it was just hilarious to watch! She's the best net leader together with Ruixiong too! even on Friday i led worship in the net, i tell you thats the best feeling, to lead people to Worship God together is truely remarkable! I won't be going for NLT 2 this semester though cause i'm worried i might have to pull out of it to go to missions. I'll probably go next year if i'm staying in Singapore for two years... Actually on Sunday, some of the youths wanted to go to see Doulos the ywam(youth with a mission) boat which travels all around the world, but we never got to go so i went with my parents today! it was kind of boring staring at so many books that you have no interest in but the tour around the boat was nice! we got to see where they slept and where they eat and where they even do their laundry.... its kind of like a cruise except its way way way smaller and that its sort of self service hahaha. I've also taken an interest in Relienk K and Declan Galbraith! they are soooooo cool, Relient K for they're familiar yet christian music and Declan for his great singing! Seriously he sings like an angel! he also sounds like nick jonas but when declan's voice becomes deeper he still sings well unlike Nick who pretty much strains his voice! and Declan's irish and scottish, and is a year older than me hahaha oh well i'd better stop rambling and start playing a game i bought from Doulos

God is so good!

God is good! He taught me how to have faith although now i have to practice it!, He also has given me the chance to praise Him on stage, and i know He would give me the advice on how to praise Him, I've got the best mentor in esther foong! She has been helping me these few days! well its the holidays and my best friend's birthday has just passed, hey Joalynn! how does it feel to be old hahahaha joking hahaha well i've got to find something to do if not i could go crazy hahaha! I'll probably be posting more often then again maybe not hahaha i also have two new terrapins and they are complete cuties i'm still thinking of what to name them! maybe ginger and saphy!

God is good!

I had to write and create a poem out of nowhere for my assignment and i thought it was going to be hard but then i got inspiration and this is what i came up with, And when you read this please comment on it!




God's love vs man's love
I gave my heart away, to your side forever stay

But you trashed it and smashed it anyway,

Will I find another?

To help me cope?

Maybe I should go to the pope?

Wondering where to turn

Should I just burn?

All the memories we used to yearn?

Everything I held dear

Is coming near

To an end which I despise

And then I realize

My God was always there,

To get me out of here

From the mess that I was in

To a place where I can win!

The mini concert on Sunday

Today the worship training class had a mini concert in the multipurpose hall at cck! Everybody had the jitters especially me! We were at Jurong west as usual for our sunday service! then we went to have lunch at gek poh shopping area, i ate with Joash, Esther Foong, Pam and Desmond, all of them were hilarious in the way they talked and joked about! after that we took a cab down to cck for the mini-concert which starts at 2.30 so we had sometime to kill while we were there, Pam went to play the piano on stage together with Esther, Jason tan, Jonathan and Desmond... we were trying to help Esther choose a song to sing for the mini-concert...... Desmond also had that same trouble in deciding too! We were also playing a fool on the piano and laughing at Esther and Pam singing songs with funny expressions with some emo songs with hilarious suggestions like falling on your knees and then jumping up and continuing the songs hahahaha.... Desmond also played the piano and made a funny face while singing! too bad i didn't catch it on video otherwise it would have been cool! Then Hannah, Samuel, Daniel and i went outside to practice abit before the time came..... When sis anne came we were told there was a meeting in the santuary so we went up to the multipurpose hall, before that we also drew lots to see who was going first the number was :
1.Desmond
2.Samuel
3.Esther
4. ME!!
5.Kevin
6.Gabriel
7.Hannah
8.Daniel

Well to me we all did our best and had some fun while nerve wrecking experiences for everyone hahaha well here's my video for singing and pretty much embarrassing myself so hahaha btw if you hear a woman's voice its my mom haha! she had been praying for me to not get nervous for the performance. It sort of worked cause i didn't really feel nervous inclusive of the laugh midway, Hannah thanks though you sort of made me forget about the crowd for a short moment hahahaha! Well after that I had nlt1 and then evening service and after that we went with the youths to have dinner, and during dinner we were laughing and telling lame jokes with Renming and Anthony and Mark and Sarah and then went home.

Wow! God is amazing!

How do people cope with hurt?  they cut themselves, and hurt themselves and some even give up entirely and commit suicide! well 1 Corinthians 3:16-17 says

"Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's spirit lives in you? If anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him; for God's temple is sacred and you are that temple"

Powerful verse isn't it? I know now that if i'm feeling hurt of any kind i should look to God as He has always been there for me, not even my family can be there for me all the way but God has, and i'm glad He's in control. Imagine if there was no God... imagine people living without somebody looking out for them, there wouldn't be any love or anything beautiful, honestly a world without God is just a blank! not even people would be there..... why? because in Genesis 1:1-3 it says

" In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters. And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light."

Now imagine a world with an evil god.......where the world would be in chaos and there still would not be any love, imagine if all god did was to create us just to kill each other or to make a joke out of us?

there wouldn't be anything beautiful in this world now would it?

 But yet My God is Living and Good! He created trees to shade us, He made us to think for ourselves and not be some dumb puppets doing stuff without a brain! Everything you see around you from the trees to the birds and the skies and the oceans was all created by Him! Why you ask? its because He loves us and He wants us to have the best view for our eyes! After everything He has done for us all He asks in return is for us to love him whole heartedly, is that so much to ask for?

Updates!

man i haven't blogged in like a week and i've missed so much updates hahaha AND ITS JUST A WEEK! anyway argh got editorials to do fun but boring in a way plus compos and marking for my work! hais its going to be a tiring week, i went to the doctor and he told me that my cough was borderline asthmatic and that i should go on a bland diet, i know in the previous week i got very distracted by different things but mostly jealousy, why i have no idea! anyway its been tough cause i've been ta hanning for quite long already, why do i even care so much i have no idea also! my cough has been getting better i suppose after all i have finished my pill medication though i still have my liquid medication haha i was worshipping God yesterday and i realized that i haven't been giving Him my 100% in my worship and once i admitted it to Him, i felt close to Him again! now i'm going to work hard enough to go back to the level where i used to be, to the point of time where the Holy Spirit would tell me and teach me how to worship Him, to the point where i wouldn't get distracted by friendships and wouldn't let them get in my way of getting close to God and completely depending on Him for everything, for friendship, for financial needs and for my entire life basically! Well i'm still dealing with jealousy problems and i think it kicked it up a notch and went into my dreams! well thats gotta stop! hahaha i had a great time on sat with the youths and then the cw bbq after that was awesome! WELL TRUSTING GOD IS THE ONLY WAY TO CARRY ON IN LIFE! hahaha so i hope it would be revealed why i'm going through this hahaha either way i THINK it's going to interesting! You wanna know something weirder? whenever i'm not close to God my hairstyle when i wake up is crazy but when i'm close to God my hairstyle when i wake up is super super tame! plus i am more active and friendly hahaha there's your proof that God exists!

East Timor Day 3

Got some news from my mom today that they found  a house with an incredible view of the mountains, though there is only electricity from 6pm to 12am which would be hard on me to tell the truth, i will post the pictures later:) today i woke up at 5 pm again as i was too tired the whole day. today i didn't cough as much as yesterday because everytime i coughed my abdomen hurts very badly:( i hope i can go to my net tomorrow:)

East Timor Day 2

Today i didn't recieve news from my mom and about East timor, i'm having a fever right now (38.2) and i actually woke up at 5pm cause i was so tired from coughing! I hope i get better in time for net and the edge:)i think i'm sick because i'm missing my mom, anyway i had a friend who was telling me how many ways i can get better from home, and i had another friend who is praying for me:) well i'm tired again so i'm just gonna go off now:)

East Timor Day 1

Today i didn't get to say goodbye to my parents when they went to the airport, well i came back and tried not to think about it couldn't sleep the whole night cause of a horrid and painful cough, so i made spaghetti for myself and after eating felt like vomitting:( i also had a slight fever and my stomach was giving me problems, I fell asleep until 5 pm in the evening and still felt like vomitting, but my sister made seafood spaghetti which was too much for her to finish so she gave me half of it and it was delicious and then i watched abit of monster house and first class and sayang sayang and i recieved a message from my mom saying that she's arrived safely and they said that they have arrived safely and that they would be going to Quelicai tomorrow here's charis coughing her way to sleep now goodbye!

The Start of Something New

Well it has been a few days since i last blogged, today is the day before my parents leave for East Timor, was feeling scared, I spent the whole day watching a show called "fated to love" or something like that:) i can't remember the title but its really sad at some parts and really heartwrenching parts in the show, its also very addictive...I spent the whole day watching it with my mother and sister so called quality time together hahaha anyway we laughed together and my mom and me cried together cause there was a part where the main lead had to choose between his long time girlfriend and his pregnant wife, and another part where the girlfriend was not wanting to share the main lead with the wife, gave her the abortion papers which the girlfriend said that the main lead wanted the wife to sign and indirectly caused the wife to have a miscarriage, i think that was the saddest part in the whole show! I also have a hurting throat and cough from practicing alot of songs for a mini presentation for worship training(which i love btw), its also because i have been worrying for my parents who are going early in the morning to East Timor. My good friends tried to help me cheer up although the subjects we talked about on msn was like about choosing what song to sing(hannah) or singing in the rain(yes renming you!hahahaha) or trying to forget about what was happening:) anyway i chatted with my new mentor(for worship) who is esther foong!She encouraged me and told me that no doubt its going to be tough but with God's grace, He will see me through! and through this i will be totally dependent on God! hahaha i look foward to the grooming of a new charis from now on! hahaha also this is going to be the start of a 7 day blogging where i will try to keep readers informed of the work in east timor:)jia you charis! I really hope that my parents can find internet in East Timor, so that my mom can keep me informed of the works done by God over there hahaha this is Charis signing off now!

Updates!

hey! here's an update in my everyday life, it's been boring and i have been worrying about school and many stuffs like that, more of like going out of the country or living without my parents for two whole years?! anyway i'm busy being abit confused with all my thoughts, my friends clan has been growing including great friends like Ren ming, Hannah, Samuel, Rachel, Hui min and most importantly my sister Sarah. I've learnt that its good to have other friedns so that if one friendship fails others are still there to back you up, THANKS EVERYBODY WHO I'VE MENTIONED!!!! THANK YOU TO THE YOUTHS IN REGION 11 you've helped me alot! so thanks to everybody!!! I've also have been watching cool series like iCarly(the comebacks are epic!!) and Hannah montana( the humour is good in this) and JONAS(the jonas brothers especially nick is SOOOOOO CUUTTTEEEE!!!!!)GO NICK!!!! he's just soooo cuutttteeee hahahaha tooo cute omw i am so obsessed with nick!!!hahaha

thank God

well its been a long time since i have last updated my blog hahaha anyway my friend problems are getting better i have been learning not to let friendships take priority in my life well now there's something up with my head cause is just a mass of flying thoughts and i can't concentrate on one thought for vey long... i don't know how to explain it but its scary cause it has happened before. I've been watching iCarly lately and it is hilarious! with all their comebacks and and jokes and my favourite character in the show is Sam cause she's one cool tomboy. hahaha i just had a heart to heart talk with a friend and i realize that i'm not the only one in the world who is going through freindship problems. I am going to be completely random and say CORPSE BRIDE ROCKS!!!!! haha one very funny line is " with this candle i will...i will...i will set your mother on fire" He was actually refering to a wedding vow hahaha although people have been thinking i'm emoing? hahaha i don't know but it is hilarious!!!! anyway maybe typing all these down i might be clearing my head but its not really working though my thoughts are still flying by. and i'm probably stoning cause i cannot hold a thought down... i have been taking care of immanuel lately together with my sister and he's cute when he's not throwing a tantrum... well point is he's cute hahaha anyway man is it tiring to take care of a toddler hahaha not that i hate it or anything i love taking care of him.... although he hits me alot and stuff hahaha i think i got some good photos from him and some cool videos hahaha but i'll try to put the video on this blog

FRIDAY!!!!

It's funny how God works in different situations like reminding me of my old classmate hahaha okay, i'll finally admit that he's cute!!! gee that sure took alot of courage hahahaha had an awesome time at net outreach, heard creepy but cool stories about biology? hahaha operations and different parts of the heart, I LOVE MY NET!!!!!!!! AND I'M HAPPY TO BE PLACED WITH RUIXIONG, JOY AND EDMUND!!!! they are seriously the best net leaders on the planet at least to me that is hahahaha.Been having friend troubles but God gave me a word during these trying times saying

"Old things have come to pass and a new order is being established. Do not resist moving into the new and unfamiliar, for you must do this to fulfill your kingdom destiny. Do not be afraid, but rather be obedient and yielded to My leading. Let Me cause you to stand on the firm foundation of My Word and purposes for you. I will take you step by step through this process of growth and stability in the midst of uncertainty, says the Lord."

"Beloved, don't be surprised at the number of areas in your life that need to be revamped as this season of transition draws to a close. You have already experienced drastic changes as places in your life have undergone needed renovation, but this process is not yet finished. There is a fine-tuning going on that will prepare you to be a more useable and polished vessel for Me to use, says the Lord. The sifting continues."

SO I'M GONNA KEEP GOING ON FOR GOD!!!!DEVIL LIVE WITH IT!!!!!

hey! have been feeling confused lately though that might not be a surprise, just got a word from God that i shouldn't let missions be a hiding point in life and that i should face my problems head on and not bring them to the mission field. I got some encouraging words from bill and marsha burns who gives prophetic words every day and i have to say they are really really accurate!

"Beloved, I am bringing revelation to your heart and mind that will reveal strongholds in your life that have not yet been torn down. I will show you the way of victory, but you must quiet your own soul and refuse to give place to fear. Let Me show you the powers that are arrayed against you so that you can wage an effective spiritual war. I am about to level the playing field by giving you righteous perspective of what was and what is and what is to come, says the Lord."

John 16:13 However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak; and He will tell you things to come.

Even as i'm writing all this down the Lord is speaking to me and it does hurt but well how else can i be a good vessel for Him to use.
It is also amazing that even when you know that you have trouble which troubles you every time that all your worries fade away when you're in God's presence. I also know that i do not need to prove anything to anyone.

Kinda boring Wednesday

well these few days there is nothing much happening, we had a 2 hour worship meeting (is is supposed to be a prayer meeting) i was on impromtu duty which i'm still getting used to... i'm going to be on duty this sunday yay! or should i say *shudder* cause i'm still afraid i might mess up the slides or something, well whatever the case i hope the comments would not be as bad as the last time ex. laggy and really slow, but with God's help i know i can do it!!! i'm just nervous cause i don't have anybody to share it with anymore, feeling abit lonely and confused about some stuffs but other than that its been ok... have been having cough with phleghm which sucks and now i have to eat and drink medicine which is not fun!!!! although my cough medicine brings me to the sweet land of dreams really quickly, heavenly hours spent on sleep i find it helps me to forget what i'm going through and makes my wishes come through. well that isn't that good considering that i have to hand up work yesterday and yet its still not done!!!! I have been having weird feelings lately, hard to get rid of though, lately i have been struggling with feelings of jealousy towards my sister and i hate these feelings!!! i know that its the devil trying to cause chaos between us, nice to see we're still a threat to him. I also feel like i'm losing a best friend due to these feelings of jealousy.... haiz whatever my problems are i know God can take care of it! although its very very very painful and there is no one i can share this with except with a friend from another region which is quite sad cause i can't find a good friend in anybody in my own region except for Joalynn....Well i'd better stop ranting and go do my work so signing off here hahaha

The rising hahaha

Hey there! these few days i have been wallowing in self pity and nursing thoughts that seemed harmless but in reality they are like nursing a cobra deadly and dangerous.....always reasoning with myself, fooling myself into thinking they weren't dangerous if handled in a certain way but in reality just by entertaining them they are already dangerous no matter how you handle it it is still dangerous. i have seen how the devil attacks the Lord's annointed and i'm mad at the devil! the devil truly attacks people who have great potential in God's kingdom. a message to all who reads this: if you're not attacked you're not a threat to the devil, isn't it insulting to know you're not a threat to the greatest enemy on this earth? i can see the youth's rising up in faith and in their walk with God, something i was not trained to see until after God dealing with all the barricades that was preventing me to see what God has stored for us, God is still dealing with me although its really painful but i know God wouldn't put me through something i cannot emerge from being stronger and more powerful in the kingdom of God! to all those who are facing trials now : NEVER GIVE UP CAUSE HE'S ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU!! AMEN!!!

The Falling and the Rising

hmm this week was a tough spelled with capitals TUPH HAHAHA considering being confused and nobody was helping me, thinking people were ignoring me, not wanting me in their group and thinking that i need affection from a pet! well i realised one thing.... IT'S ALL A LOAD OF CRAP!!! once again i have successfully lowered my shield in the battle and got hurt! well it's going to be a tough journey and i'm going to need all the help i can get! BEING IN THE WORSHIP MINISTRY ROCKS!!! although i got sore feet for standing on heels too long but it's worth it knowing that God hears my cries out to Him! And God sure works in weird and unusual ways! hahaha like He used old kid's blast songs to remind me He's still in charge of everything! and Esther tan and Joy was also really sweet for asking me how i was and how if i ever need someone to talk to i can go to them! THANKS ESTHER TAN AND JOY!!! well falling down and getting up again is the whole point of the journey! THE MAIN THING IS THAT YOU DON'T LET THE DEVIL WALK ALL OVER YOU LIKE HE OWNS YOU!!!! remember you+ God= VICTORY!!!!

Supreme sunday!

hi everybody! today was an eventful day, i would write longer but i wanna catch up on my sleep hahaha

okay hmmm and some people early morning pang seh me sia wanting to go earlier! anyway the irony is that i managed to reach earlier than them anyway! yeah you know who you are!

i did my first graphic projectionist duty today! and i have to admit i was super scared and worried but everything turned out fine, thanks to God haha i prayed super hard before the duty hahaha i also made alot of mistakes but i need feedback though:) after that we had lunch at jurong point i forgot the name of the place anyway it was japanese then we all made our way to CCK building for some evangelism seminar then had evening service then had dinner(Jason tan drove some of us there*THANK YOU!*) with sarah, renming, anthony and daniel during which i had to make an effort to talk.... i wonder why in a group i tend to go quiet :( sad sad! anyway then we made it back home

super saturday!

Today was a good day! i went with hannah to go to corporate rehearsal and had a great time learning the song 'free' hahaha oh yeah we're free in Jesus! haha SAMUEL AND DANIEL GO LEARN YOUR PARTS AR! hahaha and i got STRANGLED BY HANNAH! If i was rich i'd sue her! we made our way to the edge with david ten and we arrived early where i started provoking hannah FOR FUN! yeah i tend to do that when i have sugar! we then had an awesome service with carmen preaching and during altar call God was telling me that i should keep on keeping on and i know He has a great plan for me(whatever it may be) and i know its the best!then i had dinner with the youths and talked about funny things I LOVE MY REGION'S YOUTHS! GO REGION 11!

fun-filled friday!

wow today was an eventful day! me with a few youths and her cousins *hint hint* went to west mall to watch TRANSFORMERS : REVENGE OF THE FALLEN! hahaha the show's plot was quite good and the animations were awesome! although lesson no. one never go to the movies with david and leeroy cause they forget one crucial thing when going to the cinemas, their humour! anyway its no surprise that i love optimus prime and bumblebee although i never can remember all the autobots names! hmm i know iron hide and some other who is my best friend's favourite hahaha anyway i got made fun of because of how i ate my zinger WHICH SHOULD HAVE BEEN NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!!! you know who you are! anyway NET WAS AWESOME BTW although i ate more than anything! we had a golden pillow curry bread hahaha and after that awesome chocolate icecream!the sharing was great too! GO GOD! HE ROCKS!

man am i new to this!

eh this might be my what second post in less than 30 mins hahaha its 2 am now and i think i'd better go to sleep man this is a really good way to say things on your mind hahaha anyway as you can well deduct i'm a chatterbox hahaha but i need to use this 'gift' for the right reasons like PRAISE GOD!!! and testify about what He did in my life hahaha hey btw i'm like bursting with testimonies but i'll write it when i remember it during my daily walk hahahaha i'll try to keep you posted though hahaha

these days in charis's life

wow this is a totally new world for me hahaha never expected i'd be this bored to do this but i'm just facinated by it anyway hmmm what happened to me this week? well i managed to catch up with an old friend, managed to convince a friend from my pri sch to come to my net outreach who in turn won't come unless there's another friend whom i have invited too but i think he's too busy to reply anyway i'm still praying cause i know God wouldn't let me come this far in inviting my friends so that my dream for my friends to get saved gets let down! He's been showing me many things about my life and i'm glad i came back to singapore so i can grow some more in Him!